Sunday, September 13, 2009
to my used to be closest friend,
although we might never get to see this, but, do you ;
remember how we knew each other? , how the first day we met?
the places we went , were our memories left behind,
where we would talk about anything and everything.
sharing everything, nothing we need to hide from each other.
movie session with you every week. or even more.
when we went out, you never leave me out.
whenever i have troubles, you could tell, just by looking at me.
you're the one friend whom knew so much about me.
the friend whom i can comfortably talk to and be with.
everything was so great , that i thought this friendship would stay for long.
on the day before you left singapore,
we went for a movie. but once i met you,
i could tell, something is wrong. the atmosphere isn't right.
we had totally nothing to talk about. awkward silence through the whole ride.
i dont know what is happening .
i asked you, 'are you okay?' you dont even bother to reply.
this is when, i comfirmed, something is really wrong with you.
you weren't like this before.
we watched the movie in silence, not a single word uttered to each other.
even before the movie start, the advertisement part, we didnt even talk.
this could be possibly the worst movie session ever .
i tried to talk to you on several intervals. but you just ignored me.
like as if i'm talking to the walls.
and ya, finally i gave up talking to you.
because, i was so pissed off by you, not replying me when i talk to you.
even if you are not okay, just say something. a word or few will do,
at least you reply. better than not replying me right.
after tht movie, you 'threw' me alone under my house void deck.
i couldn't go home, because i forgot my wooden door keys.
i only got my gate key with me. so how am i going to go in to the house,
when the wooden door is locked.
so i stayed till i saw a familiar face appears.
a friend who lives in the same block.
so we had a long chat there till morning.
during the chat , i never care about my phone.
so when i wanted to check what time is it,
then i knew, you ( used to be closest friend) left me a long message.
my reaction after i read that message was 'wtf........'
seriously 'wtff....' that i didnt reply you ever since then.
even when you told me , you're leaving singapore. i didnt reply.
you msn me, i didnt reply you.
because i slowly find this friendship a total lie.
all those lies you gave and to cover up for lies u tell.
i couldn't take those lies. too much lies.
i started to figure out the picture and i figured out that,
i won't be replying/contacting you anymore.
but nevertheless, thanks for being my once used to be closest friend.
at least at that part of time when i'm at my lowest, you were there, as a friend,
i guess, till now, you have no idea why,
i'm not replying you or even contacting you .
but well, i don't think you will give a damn about it.
a friendship so true, but actually it's filled with endless lies.
wtf ya?. sometimes it's due to selfishness, isn't it ?