SUNlover=*]

2010-02-08T15:53:00.005+08:00

I'M HERE TO SHARE SOMETHING,
TODAY IS THE START OF OUR UNDERSTANDING TEST 3 AT RP.
TEST STARTS AT 11AM.
STUDENTS ONLY NEED TO GO TO SCHOOL FOR THE TEST ITSELF.
AFTER THAT, CAN GO HOME (:

SO TODAY, WAS A HAPPY DAY, WAKE UP HAPPILY, GO SCHOOL HAPPILY.
FROM MY HOUSE, WALK TO BUS STOP, JUST NICE BUS 88 COME. HAPPY.
THEN THE SMOOTHNESS OF MY JOURNEY TO SCHOOL WAS
INTERRUPTED THANKS TO TWO PHILIPINO MAIDS.
THEY WALK UP TO BRIDGE FIRST. SO I WAS BEHIND THEM.
AFTER CLIMBING THE STAIRS UP THE BRIDGE,
THEY STARTED WALKING VERY SLOWLY, TALKING SO LOUDLY,
LIKE THEIR HOUSE LIKE THAT.
THEN I WANTED TO OVERTAKE THEM,
SO I WALK THE SIDE, WANNA OVERTAKE.
BUT!!!!!!!!!! THAT DAMN SELFISH MAID OCCUPY THAT VERY SIDE,
WHICH I CAN WALK TO OVERTAKE.
THEY JUST DON'T WANT TO LET ME OVERTAKE THEM.
THEN GOING DOWN THE STAIR MACHIAM LIKE SNAIL.
NOT ALLOWING ME TO OVERTAKE _|_
DAMN FUCKEDUP.

BY THE TIME, THEY GET OUT OF MY WAY,
THE BUS ZOOMED PAST ME. NB. SERIOUSLY WTF,
I COULD HAVE BOARD THAT BUS. BUT THANKS TO THAT TWO MAIDS.

I LEFT WITH NO CHOICE BUT TO WAIT FOR THE NEXT BUS.
AT THE SAME TIME, LOOKING OUT FOR TAXI.
BUT WTF, ALL TAXI ARE HIRED. FUCKEDUP.
161 CAME ONLY AT 10.45AM.
THE JOURNEY TO SCHOOL WAS 20-30MINS.
SO BY THE TIME I REACHED WOODLANDS INTERCHANGE,
THE UNDERSTANDING TEST ALREADY STARTED.

WHEN I ALIGHTED FRM 161, 169 CAME. (CAN TAKE 169 TO SCHOOL)
SO THOUGHT, OK STILL NOT THAT BAD.
BUTTTTTTTTTTT !!!!!!!!!!!! HELL NO!!
BUS NO MORE SPACE, CAN'T BOARD. _|_
STUCKED IN THE MIDDLE, DIFFICULT TO GET OUT,
TO TAKE CAB. IDIOTICCCC!!!!!

SO WAITED FOR THE NEXT BUS,
WHEN THE BUS FINALLY CAME, BOARD.
ON LAPTOP ON THE BUS.
WHEN REACHED SCHOOL, STILL NEED GO W4.
THE SHORTEST WAY WOULD BE BY GOING UP THAT SLOPE.
THE SLOPE WHICH WAS CIRCLED, IN THE PHOTO BELOW.

WHEN I GOING UP THAT LONG SLOPE,
WHICH IS ABIT DIFFICULT TO GO UP. I LOOK AT THE TIME.
OH MY GOSHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!
THEN I STARTED RUNNING UP THAT SLOPE, WITH MY BAGPACK.
I STARTED RUNNING BECAUSE I'M ALREADY 13MINS LATE.
AND I'M STILL AT THE SLOPE!! grrrrrrrrrr
RP HAS A RULE WHEREBY, STUDENTS WHO ARE LATE FOR MORE THAN 15MINS,
WILL NOT BE ALLOW TO TAKE THE TEST.
SO PANICCCC AND RUN. LOL!!!!!
LIKE ARMY SIA, RUN WITH BAGPACK. MUAHAHAHAHAHA.
RUN TO LIFT, RUN OUT OF LIFT TO FIND CLASS.
PANTING LIKE MAD.

WHEN I OPEN THE DOOR OF THE CLASS,
EVERYONE LOOK UP, =X
REACHED CLASS, FASTER KEY IN THE PASSWORD IN UT CLIENT,
TO ACCESS AND START THE TEST. THEN I SIT DOWN THERE FOR A WHILE,
TO REGAIN MYSELF BEFORE DOING THE TEST.
LUCKILY I MANAGED TO CATCH THE SECOND LAST PASSWORD,
TO ACCESS UT. IF NOT, DEAD. LOL...

THANK GOD.

2009-12-25T03:19:00.002+08:00

it's been more than 2 months since i last post anything here.
alot of photos to be updated here,

but well, i'm just too lazy..
so i'm gonna post only the recent photos,

which is photos from the malaysia trip, which i went with karina and her family..

some photos only.

other photos are with karina and her brother. haha.
when i receive them , then i upload it here :P

bye.

2009-10-18T01:21:00.002+08:00

14October09.

E37A, my first semester class,

gave me a surprise by coming down to my current class,

they came in the class during first break singing happy bday song.

with brownnie. so touched tht i cried.

didnt take photo because alot need to rush back to their own class.

thanks for coming down to give me a surprise. loves.

then, took photos with my current class, E36A. loves them too. ((:

after school i met up with dearest.
a few days before my bday,

he told me that, he don't have money to buy me bday present.

so treating me to movie and dinner only. so i said ok.

because i didn't mind if he never buy me anything,

as long as he accompany me can le..

so when i met him, indeed he has nothing on this hand..

after i walked to him, then wanted to proceed to buy tickets,

which is at the top level, he suddenly take from behind a big bag.

i was so shocked. bcos he told me tht he wont be getting me anything lo!

inside that bag, was a big nice white bear and a mystery box.

he told me the mystery box got 5 items in it.

dearest treated me to watch haeundae,

and dinner at NYNY

after that, he sent me home.
so when the lift reach my storey, we got out.
and suddenly, his hand pop out a box,
containing a necklace. at that very moment,
i was like =O
totally speechless. and i ='(
too touched la, then he wore it for me,
hugggggggsssss ='(
thanks for ending my day with the sweetest surprise ever, loves.
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sat on sofa opened the gifts!!
after which, sister gave me a gift too, a mango tanktop
hohohohohoho. thanks, (:

a really memorable birthday ever,
Thanks everyone for making it possible.
ESPECIALLY MY DEAREST !!!!!! :D

2009-10-14T07:45:00.000+08:00

a day so familiar,

2009-10-04T23:38:00.000+08:00

weekends coming to an end.
tomorrow is the start of a new semester.
how i wish, tomorrow will never come.
sighs, not looking forward to school. :/
Assimilate..
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spent this weekends at home.
because it's depressing to know that ,
holidays are coming to an end,
no more sleeping in the morning,
no more waking up in the evening,
no more midnight movies,
school so tiring, how to do all these.. lol.
must wait till the next holiday, which is december. so longggggggggggggg...
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hope my new class will be good.

2009-09-25T03:00:00.001+08:00

24/09/09
met dearest in the evening, went vivocity.
went the asian kitchen to have our dinner.
yummy dinner, ((: thanks to dearest's recommendation.
walk, walk, walk, walk, walk.
time for movie, watched 'accident'
it's okok only la. lol .
by the time i got home, it's already past midnight, lol.
nowadays, i seldom see sun. hahaha.
always see moon only. hoho .
so, tomorrow, 25sept, meeting dearest in the morning.
gonna buy mac breakfast to his house, heh.
now it's like 3am, but i'm still so awake. lol..
oh ya, ut3 result came out already! very happy with the result!!
and only maths, got D+ . lol.
i was shocked by my science result ! (: (: (: (: (: (: (: (: (: (: (: yay-ness.
because ut 1 and 2, i got D and E respectively. lol .
double x1,000,000,000 yay-ness for cognitive. ;D

22/09/09

met dearest in the evening,
went bugis, had mos burger for dinner.
it's been so long since i last ate mos burger, haha.
then to iluma, arcade, dearest caught that rainbow mickey for me !
happy happy happy (:
but rainbow minnie is still there. :(
went to watch movie, :D
nice day , spent with love.

2009-09-20T03:36:00.003+08:00

19sept,
went terminal 3's swensens for dinner,
because it's my cousin's and uncle's bday.
sumptuous meal, wooo. love it.
had earthquake ice-cream also, yummms.
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after dinner, home to sing bday song with the cake.
aunt bought swensen ice cream cake in the afternoon.
because she thought wont be eating at swensen. haha.
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later in the day then i upload the photos.
because i'm too lazy, its 3.30am now. haha.
enjoying my time, listen to one song i found on the net.
shown below. (:
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一生的伴侶

(劉緯茂牧師與甘如玲牧師祝婚歌)
詞曲:林仁一 John Lin
收錄於"說.願意"專輯中

感謝神的帶領讓我能找到你

尋尋覓覓的心不再漂流不定

當我一見到你我就被你吸引

我要用一輩子牽著你手不分離

既使走到盡頭有你相隨

不管發生何事用愛互相扶持

不離開永相伴

你是神賜給我這一生的伴侶

我會用全心來珍惜 (在每個日子裡)

我們的誓言在神面前立約

每一句話都說著我愛你

你是神賜給我這一生的伴侶

我會用全心來珍惜

無論是悲或喜是辛苦是安逸

現在將來永遠未來的路上有你

2009-09-16T02:55:00.000+08:00

the sweet like a bit only hor, BECAUSE I STACK IT UP. LOL.

15sept09 ; 5th month
dearest never go work today, hahaha.
late evening, met dearest at bugis.
because i slept till ard 5. haha. bcos, i slept at ard 8 in the morning. lol.
had dinner together . then proceed to iluma mall..
bought the 9.35pm movie ticket for i love you , beth cooper. (nice show!!) ((:
then walk around. iluma like nothing one lo :/
then we proceed back up to arcade to play.
dearest played soccer,
play till he lose, then go play my candyland thing, heheee.
dearest won kinda a lot for me, hehee. my bag's base full of sweets..
when it's time, enter the cinema,
iluma's cinema's air con very strong !!!!!
so so so so so so so so so so coldddddddddddddddd.
after the movie, which is around 23.20pm, rush to the toilet.
very very very urgent. very very very cold. lol !!!
then we rush for last train :P

i dont know why. but, i like to rush for last train with dearest.
lol !!! so funny. hahahahahaha.
another day spent with lots of love . hehehehe :P
love you lots dearest ((:

2009-09-16T02:29:00.000+08:00

12sept09
met dearest to marina at 7.30pm.
had dinner, talk over dinner, walk around, movie.
we watched blood ties.
ya it's M18, but the person didnt ask for ic. ha.
because i look above 18. hahaha. (like what many says)
by the time the movie finish, it's already 23.30pm.
need to walk very long from marina to mrt station somemore. lol.
so we rushed for the last train.
when reached mrt control station, thought no more train to pasir ris.
because, on the 'tv' didnt show any going towards pasir ris.
so decided to take cab lo.
when we turn and wanna go take cab,
i thought i saw a train going towards pasir ris,
so turned back to check. eh, really got. quickly rush down.
that pic was took in a rush. before we catch our last train. hohoho.
spent the day with much loves.

2009-09-15T02:40:00.000+08:00

14sept's midnight was tough and horrible one.
hit bed and fell asleep straight away at 7plus in the morning.
thus, i spent the whole day of 14sept sleeping.
wake up only when its 9plus in the night .

what a knockout.

later gonna meet dearest (:

it's 15sept's midnight now, zzz.
so awake . and i've nothing to do. zzz

2009-09-13T19:07:00.002+08:00

to my used to be closest friend,

although we might never get to see this, but, do you ;
remember how we knew each other? , how the first day we met?
the places we went , were our memories left behind,
where we would talk about anything and everything.
sharing everything, nothing we need to hide from each other.
movie session with you every week. or even more.
when we went out, you never leave me out.
whenever i have troubles, you could tell, just by looking at me.

you're the one friend whom knew so much about me.
the friend whom i can comfortably talk to and be with.
everything was so great , that i thought this friendship would stay for long.

on the day before you left singapore,
we went for a movie. but once i met you,
i could tell, something is wrong. the atmosphere isn't right.
we had totally nothing to talk about. awkward silence through the whole ride.
i dont know what is happening .
i asked you, 'are you okay?' you dont even bother to reply.
this is when, i comfirmed, something is really wrong with you.
you weren't like this before.
we watched the movie in silence, not a single word uttered to each other.
even before the movie start, the advertisement part, we didnt even talk.
this could be possibly the worst movie session ever .

i tried to talk to you on several intervals. but you just ignored me.
like as if i'm talking to the walls.
and ya, finally i gave up talking to you.
because, i was so pissed off by you, not replying me when i talk to you.
even if you are not okay, just say something. a word or few will do,
at least you reply. better than not replying me right.

after tht movie, you 'threw' me alone under my house void deck.
i couldn't go home, because i forgot my wooden door keys.
i only got my gate key with me. so how am i going to go in to the house,
when the wooden door is locked.

so i stayed till i saw a familiar face appears.
a friend who lives in the same block.
so we had a long chat there till morning.
during the chat , i never care about my phone.
so when i wanted to check what time is it,
then i knew, you ( used to be closest friend) left me a long message.
my reaction after i read that message was 'wtf........'

seriously 'wtff....' that i didnt reply you ever since then.
even when you told me , you're leaving singapore. i didnt reply.
you msn me, i didnt reply you.

because i slowly find this friendship a total lie.
all those lies you gave and to cover up for lies u tell.
i couldn't take those lies. too much lies.
i started to figure out the picture and i figured out that,
i won't be replying/contacting you anymore.

but nevertheless, thanks for being my once used to be closest friend.
at least at that part of time when i'm at my lowest, you were there, as a friend,

i guess, till now, you have no idea why,
i'm not replying you or even contacting you .
but well, i don't think you will give a damn about it.

a friendship so true, but actually it's filled with endless lies.
wtf ya?. sometimes it's due to selfishness, isn't it ?

2009-09-12T05:28:00.004+08:00

getting fucking worried,
bcos it's fucking late. dammmnit.

2009-09-11T23:58:00.000+08:00

10september, (Dearest 21st birthday!)

surprise him using an old way ; email. hahahahahahahahaha.

didnt have grand party, just a small celebration between the 2 of us, (:

actually wanna get a cake for him ,

but, he says dont want, because his house still got. zzz :P

we had pelican pizza for lunch, yummmmyyy (:

had a short nap.

headed to amk hub for movie ; GAMER. (not bad, nice)

had late dinner at NYNY, double yummyyyyy :D

a great day with dearest !

sweet sweet , ((: loves you,

2009-09-05T01:21:00.000+08:00

4september09.

great evening with bf and family.
tv with them.
dearest seems to get along v.well with my youngest bro and aunt.
hahahahaha, they talked a lot.
gave dearest the cookies, hehehe.

ohya, when dearest coming over,
i was kinda nervous you know.
though we together going to 5months already,
i never bring him up , back home.
today the first time.
and the first time in my life,
i brought a guy home.

the day ended well. (:
smiling with all the approvals and nods :P

2009-09-04T03:58:00.000+08:00

well, it's been long since i last update. so, i'm back ((:
holiday started since 26august.
from that day onwards, my life turns *upside down*
as in , day = sleeping time , night = awake

been 1 week 5 days of holidays,
did a lot of things, went a lot of places.
did too many things that i couldnt remember what..
movies, driving ard s'pore, slacking till dawn break and etc.......

within this short period of time,
baked cookies for the 2nd time. and there are more to come (:

heaty holiday. haha.
because of heaty foods.
getting heaty because of all the ton-ning.

ocassionally, i sleep a lot(slept for the whole day),
but still i think that i lack of sleep. =x

friends are now all over the world.
coming back at different timings.
looking forward to the 'sticky biscuit'
i dont know what is it called. since it's sticky and it's biscuit,
i named it 'sticky biscuit'
hope friend buy the correct one :P

sorry friends for all the texts that i never reply to.
because owl are busy in the night ^.^
till i forgotten to reply countless texts.
; don't bother to ask me out , because this holiday is filled with activities.
morning and afternoon are meant for sleepppssss .
exception could be made for beloved :P

:) meeting dearest later in the evening after his work, so cheerios.
* got a surprise for you :P
and i'm sorry for the past 2-3 weeks..
too much bickerings. but still, loves.

this may be the last most enjoyable holiday ever.
i can't forsee what is going to happen in the future,
just making the best out of everything in life, while still alive.

dont feel like studying anymore.

2009-08-12T00:57:00.000+08:00

JOHOR BAHRU , 11AUG09.

2009-08-12T00:55:00.000+08:00

AIRPORT RUNWAY ,

2009-08-12T00:41:00.004+08:00

NATIONAL DAY ; 09AUGUST,

2009-08-12T00:33:00.001+08:00

GRANDFATHER'S 65TH BIRTHDAY.

2009-08-09T15:16:00.000+08:00

"(afternooon)east coast, marina barrage, home(evening),
(midnight)the cathay, yishun dam, east coast. home(morning)"
one the most remembered day in my life.
it's who you are with, that counts. thanks friends.
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going marina later with sec school cliques,
shirloh, uma, rolf, xd and nasri.
for seoul garden and fireworks.
Till here, bye (:

blogger doesnt allows me to upload photo ;/

2009-08-04T08:42:00.003+08:00

yesterday night. we played that!
one whole small box, all used up.
that is childhood's fav ,

-
i'm very tired now.
eyes shutting.
you wont want to guess where i am right now.
around one hour later, gonna move to another place.
where i can stay till evening!
loves.
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motivational level very very very low for school.
thats why, you find me somewhere else.

2009-07-29T22:11:00.003+08:00

wearing of traditional clothes day.
our facilitator, yy wore too! hahahha.
cool.
but that day wasnt a good one,
i stoned for the whole day.
did only a ppt slide.
my mind obviously isnt functioning at all.
Tsktsktsktsktsktskk..
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took a lot of photos, there's over 700photos!!!
well, i only uploaded some,
next time moree. :D
till here. enjoy the photos,.

2009-07-27T02:34:00.002+08:00

there is a need to ruminate.
you will need a quiet place to do so.
a place with no disturbance.
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ruminate and improve.
while ruminating, tears might drops.
expect the unexpected when you're ruminating.
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after all this, you might be lifted up, to a higher level.
-
insomnia again, its 2.37am now.

2009-07-26T01:35:00.000+08:00

these are some of the photos taken on 21july'09
the day where we need to wear business attire for enterprise lesson.
well, nice day (: everyone looks smart :D
yiyuan, introuduced a new approach instead of
doing presentation slides for the third meeting. :D
good day, just need to do individual's resume, write up of 'tell me more about you'
related to interviewing thingy..

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there's a secret between t, y and me! :P

2009-07-24T00:30:00.003+08:00

kirouchi is a name of a toy monkey.
that toy monkey is very cute, i'm missing it !

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thursday

met up with uma after school.
Went mac to catch up plus use lappy.
after which, met up with dearest after his work.
like finally.
went up his hse took the cream he bought for me. thanks (:
then he initiated to go pasir ris! have dinner there.
was shocked though. heh :P
so took bus down,
i was sleeping throughout almost the whole bus ride. ho.
sleep like a pig. lol.
Cant blame me, i was too tired.

had dinner, talk talk talk.
time to go home, because have reflection journal to do ah..
loves.

2009-07-23T15:44:00.001+08:00

hahaha, joke of the day!

2009-07-17T07:51:00.000+08:00

x = absent
f = fail

nice grade huh, lol !

i'm very very very tired now, :(
i'm in class now, waiting for 8.30am,
when lesson starts..
i want more sleep.
Thank God, tml is saturday,
so i can sleep for the whole day, :D

2009-07-16T01:04:00.000+08:00

just a random thought,
how would and would you..
if all stated below were to happen, hmmm...

how would you feel when your friend is not talking to you anymore,
because they have found their partner already?

how would you feel when you know, you are losing your friend?

how would you feel when you know your friend actually deleted yr number,
or have never save them before ? but try to deny so.

how would you feel when you found out that
your friend blocks you in msn, yet online in oovoo?

would you feel the heartache,
because a friend so dear to you is gonna be gone sooon,
just becase everything in life changes. so does your friend.

would you cry because you know how much your friend
plays a part in your life. yet now, your friend is going to be gone ?

would you reminiscence how you get to know your friend?
in the process, would you cry ?

if this ever happens to me, what would i do ?
i think if this ever happens, i will need to accept the facts!
and maybe find out the main reason why my friend is doing this?
and hmmm. find solution to salvage this friendship ?

2009-07-15T23:59:00.002+08:00

happy 3rd month, loves.

since today we arent able to meet up,
shall do so tomorrow, :D
love you so, although u torture me at times :P

heh heh,
please do take good care of yourself ok!!
drink lots of water !
you sick = me :(
so , do get well soon ok!!
loveyou,

2009-07-12T02:31:00.000+08:00

we celebrate sidik's belated birthday on friday!
with cake and vodka!

yum seng in process with vodka+redbull

after yum seng! everyone drink in one shot!
not everyone drank though. but its nice :D
i prefer the one with lime juice, the one we had,
when we went for sentosa trip during june holiday

take photo with birthday boy.

before rushing off, hahhaahaha.
-
met dearest at his home. had dinner at 8plus.
went back to his home. slack till 10plus then leave.
because its friday! next day no school!! :D :D :D :D :D :D
love friday a lot !! :D because next day is saturday!
means no waking up early :D

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saturday i slept till 1plus.
had brunch. then after that,
i dont know what time, i went back to sleep.
slept for the whole afternoon.
its 2.45 now! so awake! becase i slpt for so long just now!!!

miss dearest so much.
wanna meet up with him soon!

next week is love!
it marked another month we spent together.

2009-07-10T15:40:00.000+08:00

gonna have science understanding test in around 15mins time.
this understanding test comfirm cannot make it.
because i missed two lesson, and that is a lot ok!
i studied the 6 presentation, but it's of no use.
because i dont understand a crap.
its like hello, we are hospitalised when lesson were carried out.
why cant they take us into consideration,

by having the science understanding test postpone!!!
grrrrrrrrrrrrrr. so unfair. so sad. wadever.
gonna meet dearest after school later :D :D :D :D

2009-07-07T00:20:00.003+08:00

finally i can post photos!!!
finally step out of the house after 1 week plus!!!
finaly met up with dearest!!!

met dearest in the evening at tm, but i was late =/
not on purpose one ah.. had our dinner,
walk around, search for belated present for my sis!
but couldnt find anything ?!?!?!?!!
i have no idea what to get her!!!

bused over to my home area, slack around,
took lots of photos :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D

so happy today, :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D
laughters, smiles,

i wanna spend more time with dearest!!!
miss him a lot, although we just now just met !!!

oh ya, happy birthday to dearest's mum! it's her bday today!!!

i think i know what to get for my sis already.
because just now when i reached home, she told me,
she went to pierce her ears!! ooohooooo, so can get for her earrings :D:D:D

where does my jy, jh, A.p and J.t besties went to ?

been friends and besties since like 2007 ?
but, now like no contact anymore. why ah?
i dont know where you people are at now,
i dont know if you all still read my blog,
because i dont think u all know my new link..
just in case, you all chance upon this post,
would like to wish you all, all the best in whatever you do.
make the best out of everything! do take care!!

people might be wondering,
why dont i sms or msn them right ?!?!?!
firstly, i lost their numbers, because i lost my phone last year!!
didnt manage to get their numbers back!! /

secondly, i got their msn. BUT! its like no chance of seeing them online!!
i dont know why either.
i think i lost contact with them last year, when i lost my precious phone.
and till now,
i'm still suspecting that it is someone whom i know, took it !!!!!! @#@!#@

2009-07-05T01:25:00.002+08:00

i cant upload photos, grrr.
why blogger got problem. lol.
got a few photos taken in hosp, when i stayed there for six days.
whatever, shall wait till it can be uploaded.
lazy to use photobucket.
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have been staying at home since the day i discharge.
this is not good. i should go out.
but, where, when, how.
tml sunday already. monday school starts.
the thought of going school make me sick. :(

2009-07-04T02:56:00.000+08:00

was falling asleep but now so awake,
2.57am

2009-07-02T14:23:00.003+08:00

25june09 : check up for the virus. home quarantined till get result.
26june09 - 01july09 : result positive, 6 days stay, in hospital.

from 26june09 - 01july09 in CGH:
i've taken a lot of medicines and cough syrup.
i've taken 3 swab test
i've taken 2 blood test
i've taken 2 x-ray
i've taken 1 , the checking of all the muscles thingy.
i've tasted the yuckiest food in hosp,
that the nurse brought me another packet of dinner.
i've laugh till i cant take it, while conferencing with karina and joyce
i've ask nurse to pass stuffs to karina's room.

throughout this seven days of struggle,
i realise a lot of things, and i'm seriously touched by all,
whom have shown their care and concern,
endless encouragements and jokes, to put a smile on my face.
people like dearest, family, e37a, friends! big thank you :D

even the slightest concern, could send tears rolling down my eyes.

someone who i disliked(a man), dearest should know who,
almost everyday, ask the nurse to send food to my room.
because, no one are allowed to visit us during the 6days of stay.
words of encouragement and all, touches me deeply.
at that very moment onwards, all hatred were forgotten.
because, i'm seriously touched.

throughout the 6 days in hospital,
no one could visit us, neither could we go out!
in the room, all alone, 24 hours!
at least, there's something called television in the room!
nothing much to do, except for sleeping, watching tv prog, calls, sms. eat. toilet.
other than this, nothing else. its way too boreddddddddd.
and couldnt wait to get out of the place asap !!!

3 times of medication per day.
each time, 3 - 4 pills plus 10-15ml of yucky cough syrup.
on average , i've taken 77 pills. 210++ml of cough syrup throughout the stay.
now, when i see medicine, i tends to drag the time...
wait for a period of time to past before consuming it.

i think when i complete my medication,
i would have consumed over 100 pills, this is sick, totally.
i dont like it at all. i want to get rid all the pills asap.

seriously, i'm glad i've completed the course of tamiflu in hosp!!!
because the side effect totally sucks, and the feeling is torturous.
so damn uncomfortable. i'm glad its over.

i'm overjoyed that i have overcome this h1n1 virus,
which, in some ways tortured me, made me lose my freedom for 7 days..
i'm happy that everything is back to normal now.
everything is fine, i've recovered from all, except for the dumb cough.
my cough is still as bad as it is. i wonder when will it stop.
because i loathes the taste and smell of the cough syrup.
i hate the drowsiness that will set it after taking it !!!

thank you the nurse for taking my bloood pressure, pulse, temp every 4 hours.
thank you the nurse for bringing in food.
thank you doctor for coming in at 8 in the morning to check on me,
with the lame and also funny jokes of yours.
thank you the aunty who clears my rubbish bin, hosp clothes,
clean the toilet, sweep the floor.

on the day of discharge, which is 01july09,
dearest came over to fetch me!! :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :)
was so happy to see you!!!
couldnt spend much time with you,
because the last tamiflu pill i took before discharge,
make me feels so uncomfortable.

anyway, love you so.
do take care hor!!!
drink more water ok!!!

oh ya, i'm currently on mc, :D
see everyone soon!!!

2009-07-01T17:44:00.002+08:00

i'm back from hospital, after 6 days.
tamiflu tortured me a lot, but it kills off the h1n1 virus in me.
will blog more soon,
because the last tamiflu med, still taking effects.
need some rest first,

2009-06-26T15:54:00.002+08:00

unfortunately, result tested positive.
now waiting for ambulance to bring me to hosp.
if you wanna contact me,
sms my hp, will be bringing my phone.

do take care people,
i love you.

2009-06-26T00:53:00.002+08:00

This is getting serious,
e37a is having symptoms of h1n1.
almost whole class went to polyclinic , got send to hosp.
now 2 comfirmed case, the rest waiting for result.
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at first when i test tmp at home, its alright.
when i went to polyclinic. got fever.
scared till T.T
waited for ambulance for 2 hours.
scary.. reached there 38.2 degree.
faints.
i'm waiting for result now..
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pray that everything will fine.
hope that everyone will be fine.
pray tht gladys and alfiah will recover from h1n1!!!!!
pray, pray, pray. nothing will happen to each and everyone of us in e37a.
people, please do take care of your health.
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='(
now kena qurantined at home for 7 days.
while waiting for results to be out.
all alone in the dark dark room.
receiving calls and sms for updates.
everytime i hear my msg tone rings.
my heart skipped a beat. because, its so scary.
to know if the one you're close to, comfirmed with h1n1.
just praying that really nothing will happen.

2009-06-25T01:38:00.002+08:00

no school from today till one week later.

2009-06-25T01:01:00.002+08:00

tuesday was the last lesson with jacob.
it's damn sad. after school,
we had a farewell party for him.
there was cake, drinks, video presentation specially for jacob and a poem.
the video presentation brings tears to my eyes.
plus the songs in the video presentation, was those emotional kind one.
whenever it comes to this kind of video presentation for farewell party,
or even graduation day, i would cryyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.
but luckily i hold back my tears. just few rolled down.
oh ya. we gave him a board too, nice.
blow cake, cut cake and the cake smashing started.
actually wont kena, until the end,
the smell of the chocolatey creamy stuffs makes me wants to puke.
bit of my hair kenaa, grrrrrr.
wash up, but still got smell..
went to meet dearest,
i thought i was going his house downstairs makan.
when i'm khatib going yishun, i called him,
then he told me that he gonna bring me to watch
ghosts of girlfriend past.
i was oooo.. shocked.
cos on friday, i told him i wanna watch tht show!
but over the weekends, i totally forgot abt tht movie!
because i was so into facebook games,
that i can play the games for the whole day!!
i was so so so so so so happy when he told me that :D
so we went amk hub buy tickets.

went to have dinner .
watch movie.
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i like the show leh :D :D :D
how a playerboy turns into devoted guy.
you will be amazed by how many ex he have.
you will be disgusted at one or two small parts of the movie.
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WEDNESDAY.

only 3/4 of the class came to school.
had fire drill when its like 11.15am for our block ah.
went to assembly area, which is carpark.
then after tht, only 10 or less than tht, went back class.
we chabot. opps.
Went orchard with karina in the afternoon.
met dearest in the evening,
had dinner at ard 8. lol.

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feeling sour when i saw this happening.
in some ways, similar to what happened last year.
so, i couldnt help but shed tears,
when i thought of the process of what happened last year.

dearest, no matter what happens,
i will always be there for you! <333333333>

2009-06-20T01:29:00.003+08:00

FRIDAY!

1)Grandma had operation on her eyes at SG early in the morning.
started at 8.30, ended at 9.30.
she's gonna go back tmr for checkup.

2)met up with dearest, at his house.
by the time i reached his home,
just nice he woke up.
weather was so damn hot. so took a bathe,
When i came out, i was like shocked,
cos, dearest changed to num dry fit tee.
same as what i'm wearing!
just that, it's of different colour...
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FOR THE CONSECUTIVE THREE POSTS, IT'S IMAGE HEAVY! :D
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2009-06-20T00:47:00.004+08:00

met up with shirloh and rolf first.
to have our dinner at whitesand.
Then, 6pm, walked to ehub.
walk around.
waited for the rest.
bought tickets, popcorns, drinks.
enter cinema. at ard 7pm.
we watched I LOVE YOU MAN. :D
after the movie, we went to take photos :D
talk talk talk. then we proceed to mc cafe,
for more cathing up and stuffs,
while uma do her RJ using rolf's laptop. lol.
ended the day with a sweet smile :D

2009-06-20T00:11:00.005+08:00

PHOTOS WITH MY BELOVED E37A, :D
These are some of the photos only,
only upload the group photos, lesser and faster :D
the correct order should be,
monday(pink/red), tues(black), wed(sec sch uni, class tee, pe shirt)
BUT, the pictures were uploaded the other way round. lol!
instead of starting from monday to wed, it starts from wed to monday. LOL!!
love my class, :D

2009-06-19T01:32:00.002+08:00

greetings to all owls! :D
why owls? because, it's 1.32am now!!!

thursday school was fun.
we were supposed to wear secondary school uniform!
but mine were thrown away, some others too!
some wore sec sch uni, some wore class tee, pe shirt.
anything that is related to our secondary school :D
joyce was star of the day, haha.
took photos after lesson time, went crazy.
left with karina and sidik, we walked to woodland mrt station.
as usual. shared what happened today.
talk a lot of craps,
so when we walk past one stop centre,
i randomly said, so now, we can apply what we learn today.
the directions given of how can one walk from rp to mrt station. lol.
yes, one of today's problem statement is about,
giving direction to first time visitors to rp and singapore.

i think today problem statement was a fun one. lol.
seems easy. but, not really easy you see, lol..
i love my team! gary showed me battle royale part 2 on youtube,
during breaktime. and i continue a bit one part 3, then didnt carry on.
because loading was damn slow and i was irritated by it. hahaha.

you know what,
i think RP should implement something!
when students are absent from school, call parents or home. LOL.
i think this is so much better you see.
now when we skip school, our parents or what so ever wont know.
unless we stayed at home la.

but for someone right,
she reaches woodlands mrt station already.
then she u turn back to somewhere else, instead of school.
reach woodlands already, still can go other place. not bad ah,
ezlink card a lot of moneyy horrrrrrr. lol.
Dont know who is that person siol. LOL. whatever.

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i remember the day me and my friend went dhoby ghaut,
early in the morning. as in really early in the morning!
because we hate school that day. lol .
when there's like no one in the building !
the food court less than 10 people!
makan and l4d there. lol.
the shopping mall, not even a single shop open.
hahahaa. like idiot only. go centerpoint,
take lift up , walk to other lift at the other side.
then lift down. ok, damn bo liao ok.
then we took bus 65 to tm. lol.
and tht person was damn cruel to leave me alone,
to go home help bro with computer.
so i went to library to kill my time, using laptop.
i stay in the library till evening when i meet dearest. hahhaa.

why am i recalling this super bo liao day! instead of going to sleep?
it is 2am now, like hello owl. :D
ok wait. owl dont sleep at night, lol.
hahaha. i'm hungry now. i didnt have dinner la dey.
i just ate a bit of the dish laaaaaa. lol .
mac's mac's mac's , kfc's kfc's kfc's, bk's bk's bk's BREAKFAST.

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late nights is killing me,
i was zombies in school. because i dont have enough sleep. :D
but its fun at time, like when doing ppt,
then jus suddenly, boom on table, sleeps :D

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ok. bye for now.
i need to find something to do,
or what so ever. i cant sleep.
because owl dont sleep in the night!

JUST KIDDING LA! :D

oh ya! meeting uma, shirlyn, rolf, zamair and dhan later at 7.30pm,
for movies !!!!! :D so long didnt see the guys already. except rolf.
so looking forward to it !
was kinda unexpected, because dhan was the one who initiate this.
was i saw the msg, i was like, 'wow, ok. cool' hahaha.
if you know dhan, he dont come for class trip.
like tht time sec4, we all last min says go cycling,
he was like okok. in the end, he didnt turn up!!! lol.

ok. bye. till here.

2009-06-15T23:52:00.003+08:00

THIS POST, IS SPECIALLY DEDICATED TO MY BELOVED YCF!

happy 2nd months :D
met dearest straight after school, as he mc today. lol.
happy happy happy day, filled with loves, :D
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the happiness and support you give me, are priceless.
treasuring every seconds when i'm with you.
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Look deep inside me, can you see the flame

It burns so bright, it burns only for you

It’ll never fade, forever it will always remain

Faithfully it will always be true
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its been 2 months.
i love each and every days that i spent with you.
Even though, at times, its just a simple dinner.
but it is enough to put a smile on my face :D
Even though, at times, we have no idea where to go.
just spending time with you, i'm happy.

for the past 2months,
you have given me support to go on strong.
road of life werent that easy.
you were there to cheer me up when i'm feeling down.
you may not know, but now, i'm telling you,
for this past 2 months, silently, you gave me the strength,
to not give up on this family..

you love me for who i am.
i'm seriously touched at that time, when i told u my deepest secret in life,
since childhood, but u didnt mind or despise.
i'm more touched when you sent this ;
'dear i love you for who you are. dont worry alright. i love you (: muacks'
i remembered so clearly,
when i received this msg when i'm in the bus, going home,
while u go meet your friends, i cried. because, seriously, i'm so touched.

even when i'm typing out this post.
i could still clearly feel how touched i'm at that very moment.
tears of touchness still drops.
the moment, which left a great impact in me.

thank you, loving you always.

with loves,
dora

2009-06-14T02:08:00.003+08:00

took this when we webcam on 17may, 2,54am.
haha, early in the morning, webcamming.

you were so busy this few days.
that i can hardly talk to you.. :(
i'm missing you so,
its been 4 days since we last met.
today's the fifth day.
at least, monday can meet you !!

* wear tht shirt. the one u were wearing, shown in my dp, on monday !!!

<33333333333333333333333
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tomorrow meeting karina.
to suntec.
evening time, gonna have dinner with family,
At xiao hong lou, to celebrate advance father's day.
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monday end of holiday ,
need to go back school for lessons, sighs.
first lesson after holiday is MATHS!
hello, what an AWESOME lesson its gonna be.
so not looking forward to monday's lesson.
so, maybe MIA frm school ? i know this is not doing me any good.

2009-06-13T21:56:00.002+08:00

I could feel your presence every night; so strong
As I’m laying in my bed slowly drifting to sleep
I always knew what my heart felt wasn’t wrong
You gave me the greatest gift, a love so deep.

2009-06-12T22:58:00.001+08:00

is it coincidental or what shit ?

noon's activities was cancelled,
so i slept till 2plus, 3. hahaha.
nothing to do except watching likeable or not online.
left house at 6.45pm, walked to whitesand there,
suppose to meet shirloh and uma at 7 opp inter.
then place where we can get into pasir ris park.
shir was late, i walked to dte, outside escape to wait for them.
they finally reached at ard 7.30. lol !!
then went to costa sands there, wanted to rent bike.
but it's closed.
so, we walked all the way to the other side,
the one near whitesand exit.
when we reached there,
and i wanted to rent, guess what the uncle told us,
only can rent for overnight. like hello. grrrrr.
so, we didnt have our cycling trip.
we went whitesand for mac.
ice cream and fries . lol .
backed at home at 9plus 10. hmmm.
what should i do tomorrow?
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i'm missing dearest so much. :/

2009-06-11T23:47:00.000+08:00

met the girls at tm1 at 5pm,
had frolick.
shopped. bought. shopped
homed.
had fun with them :D
gonna meet them tml at 7pm, to cycle! haha.
its been long since i last cycle at night..
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i still want to shop.
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i'm missing you, <3

2009-06-10T02:33:00.001+08:00

you gave me the happiness which money cant buy,
loving you deeper as the days passes,

sunday, went wild wild wet with 2cousins,
their parents and my siblings. had fun.
i left at 5plus, going to 6,
to meet dearest at amk, just for dinner :D
even the simplest dinner could make my day,

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monday, went Home Team Academy.
CE trip la dey. ended at 12plus.
i slept from ard 5pm onwards,
woke up for an hour or so, then went back to sleep.
till the next day, 2pm plus. lol.
i'm sucha pig, goshhh. lol.
Wondering, why am i so exhausted ? ho.
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tuesday, met up with dearest.
slack around, had dinner for like an hour!
hahaha, we ate a lot today! lol.
stomach filled with love, lol !!!
so happy la today, :D
although it's just a simple evening and dinner with dearest.
just want to spend time with you :D
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next week is arriving soon !! :D
know what's so special? heh heh,
look at yr calender la dearest. :P
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wednesday cos its 3.00am now.
actually, later 9am,
i got to go school for the Adventure Learning Programme.
but, last min, its's cancelled !!!
due to the poor attendance for the previous slots. hohoho.
i was looking forward to this!
but no reason, suddenly, yesterday, i dont feel like going.
seriously, i dont know why. haha.
and coincidentally, its cancelled. yohooooooooo :D
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till here for now, :D goodnight or goodmorning people.
my dearest piggy is soundly asleep now, haha, loves.

ps; one day, we should ton :D probably weekends.
bocs, the next day, u have no work and i have no school, :D

2009-06-05T23:58:00.002+08:00

i wants a chauffeur,
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woke up ard 2pm ah.
and rushed, cos they not enough people for the event.
in the end, when me and karina at pasir ris mrt platform,
they say we dont need go already.
BECAUSE, THEY SUDDENLY HAVE ENOUGH PLP.
hello, wtf la.
if not i'm still at home sleeping.
we didnt even eat anything, we just rushed out u know!
in the end like, SUDDENLY GOT PEOPLE?! WTF AH.
so we tapped out of mrt station.
took bus to my home. cos i need to change! and put my bag.
before going to elias mall to have mac. its like going to 4pm already lo.
wahlao. sian.
after we ate, i cabbed down to find dearest :D
today he never go work again. tsktsk. hahhaa!
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yay!! tomorrow dearest coming over to my house for dinner!! :D
looking forward to tomorrow night, :D

2009-06-03T23:41:00.002+08:00

went sentosa with class yesterday.
was suppose to meet at 9am, but some were late.
the rest arrived at ard 9.30.

had their breakfast before going to giant.
after this and that..
we reached palawan beach at ard 12? lol.
played volleyball. didnt want to go into water yet,
but got thrown in, grrrrr. thanks to ice.
stayed in water, played truth or dare.
no dare for me, :P so only truth. haha.
stayed in water kinda longgg before we decided to go up.
the sand was so hot, like burning.
we drank when its evening time.
adam and his mini bar. hahha. someone said that.
at 8.30, went to take monorail with karina and gladys.

went topshop, f21 and pull and bear.
they wanted to see something.,
then gladys went for mrt. cos her direct ma.
so i went buy mac with karina before going take bus65.
took at 9.30 then reached tm at 11plus la. omgggggggggggg.
so damn longggggggggg. mrt to pasir ris.
bus home. reached home when its like gonna be 12am.
what a long day. but fun.
sun burnt till woahh. damn red. lol,

have been spamming my body with either moisturiser or aloe vera gel.

2009-06-02T01:06:00.004+08:00

1.06am

on the 1st june,
went bugis, suntec with cousin, aunt and sis.
bought a lot of things.
i spent nearly to hundred.
cos aunt paid for 2 items, lol.
if not, over hundred ah..
from 1plus till 6pm. wooo.
hahhaa. they accompanied me till 6.
because i meeting dearest :D
they left at 6, met up with dearest.
went for dinner, then 2 games of bowling. haha.
fun. i nearly win him for the second game ok.
cos spare... strike, for the first few.
after that, finger pain, cant really play liao. lol.
so in the end, he win me. lol.
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tomorrow sentosa with e37a :D

2009-05-29T00:25:00.003+08:00

12.26am.

i'm counting down to the end of schoool,
which is at 4.45pm, as we have science understanding test!
not that i dont want go school.
its because, i need my sleep, BADLY.
ever since school starts, my dark circles are getting worst!
not like during holidays, can sleep at 5am, wake up in the afternoon u know.
nowadays, for weekdays, not matter what time i sleep,
i must wake up at 5.45am !! hello, its so early.
that i skipped school sometimes.
i think gonna get warning letter liao, wtf. anything. wadever..
like how many days only.
not as if 1 whole week never go. lame la, rp. lol.
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yesterday, 28may09.
school was fun! i like it :D
only for this day, presentation no chionging. relax one. LOL!
i hate chionging for ppt! feels like craps.
had introduction to communication practice understanding test.
ended at 4.45.
oh yah, i lost my ezlink. i dont know why. where, when and how.
wtf. lol. went to report lost at one stop centre.
the guy asked me, 'where u lost it ?'
me; 'i dont know'
tht guy; 'when you lost it'
me; 'i dont know, haha'
something like tht. everything he asked, i says 'i dont know'
because i seriously dont know la !! lol.
he laughed at me giving him the 'i dont know' reply lah. omg.
so malu lah. lol!!
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met dearest at yck.
had usual dinner together :D
i dont know why, i just love having dinner together with him.
how he always finish his food first and he will need to wait for me!
while waiting, he will look at me, when i'm eating! haha
and all i do was keep smiling. haha. cos my heart is smiling!! :D
went our his house.
watched britain got talents, haha. simon always the 1st to 'X' people out. lol.,
so funnny la. then watched channel 5. ninja warriors. some every funny leh.
left for home when the short hand reaching 9pm.
and i only reached home at 10plus, hoho.
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because of you, my heart is smiling.
therefore, projecting the smile on my face, :D
ily,

2009-05-26T11:30:00.002+08:00

The success of love is in the loving
- it is not in the result of loving.
Of course it is natural in love to want the best for the other person,
but whether it turns out that way or not
does not determine the value
of what we have done.
x
If we really want to love
we must learn how to forgive.
x
There is a terrible hunger for love.
We all experience that in our lives - the pain, the loneliness.
We must have the courage to recognize it.
The poor you may have right in your own family.
Find them.
Love them.

BY Mother Teresa.

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I'm just being random over here.
just now, enterprise faci, jacob was saying abt mother teresa quote thing.
so, i just random type in google and saw those above,

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http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0DxlJWJ_WfA

click on this link, and see this video,
we normally would complain about life.
complain about this and that.
but now, see this video.
after watching it, do you think you still have anything else to complain?
do you think that you are the most unfortunate one?
What about this person in this video.
how can he still face life so positively although he isnt like all normal person.
saw him real life in church before.
seeing this video again, really make me reflect, deep within me.
if you are this guy, how would u live your life.
or will u prefer the easy way out by ending your life?
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decision lies in yourself.

2009-05-25T22:50:00.002+08:00

i'm ok, seriously.
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thanks for bringing me to the 'idontknowwhat' place,
which have those punching bags.
i wanna go there again, soon.
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iloveyou, truly,deeply,from the bottom of my heart.

2009-05-23T00:54:00.003+08:00

its alright already.
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dearest, i promise you, no more next time already,
i love you , :D see you soon.
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<33333333333333
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i will remember everything you told me :D

2009-05-23T00:15:00.003+08:00

wanted to show karina my elmo.
but dont know why, cant webcam. so i took photo for her,
put in msn display. then asked her to take photo with her elmo also!
LOL! so funny.

this dumb dumb above says : 'dora is back to normal, can siol already'
LOL! so much craps la her, lol .
she's my best friend in E37A :D
and she lives near me! LOL, so cool.

2009-05-22T21:10:00.002+08:00

look back at the past one month plus.
remembered how we got together.
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my daily routine involved you.
after school, waiting in class all alone, for time to tick to 5.15pm.
while waiting for 5.15pm, i would do my RJ and stuffs.
when its time, left school to mrt station, to train down to yr workplace.
i'm always looking forward to see you.
no matter how tired i was, i will still wait for you to finish your work.
for the past one month plus, have been having dinner with you almost every evening.
i like this part the most. its like we are living together.
spending time together, even though we have no where to go.
all i wanted was to spend time with you..
you're the sweetest thing i have in my life.
the one i treasure a lot.
the one who gave me moral support, love and everything i wanted.
you never despise me for what i've told you. which many others would.
you made my days filled with colours.
you're the one, giving all the main support i ever wanted.
you're like pillars supporting me.
for i dont live with my parents, they dont care like how u cared for me.
i've never thought, a day without you, how would it be.
for now, i know and i experienced it.
its atrocious, having to lose all my main supports given.
i need to stand strong, supporting myself, because no one else would support me,
like how you supported me.
its been a day,
have you eaten your meals? what have you been doing?
are you ok ? i miss you lots.
i'm looking forward to see you again.
i'm sorry. i love you.
i dont want to spend days without you. necause the feeling is unbearable.

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I always needed time on my own
I never thought I’d need you there when I cry
and the days feel like years when I’m alone
and the bed where you lie is made up on your side

When you walk away I count the steps that you take
do you see how much I need you right now?

When you’re gone
the pieces of my heart are missing you
when you’re gone
the face I came to know is missing too

When you’re gone
the words I need to hear to always get me through
the day and make it ok
I miss you

I’ve never felt this way before
everything that I do reminds me of you
and the clothes you left, they lie on the floor
and they smell just like you, I love the things that you do

When you walk away I count the steps that you take
do you see how much I need you right now?

When you’re gone
the pieces of my heart are missing you
when you’re gone
the face I came to know is missing too

When you’re gone
the words I need to hear to always get me through
the day and make it ok
I miss you

We were made for each other
out here forever
I know we were, yeah

And all I ever wanted was for you to know
everything I’do, I’d give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me, yeah

When you’re gone
the pieces of my heart are missing you
when you’re gone
the face I came to know is missing too

When you’re gone
the words I need to hear to always get me through
the day and make it ok
I miss you

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no more 700 over words of RJ from me anymore.
i really cant produce a 700 words long anymore.
today's RJ i wrote only pathetic 80 words.
cos my mind was so corrupted that i couldnt think of anything, seriously..
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never thought things would turn out this way.
improve for the better please, come back.
i love you so .

2009-05-22T08:13:00.003+08:00

free flow.
really cant stop the tap.
non stop for hours. eyes closed, nothing.
morning when i'm leaving house, free flow again.
on the way to school also,
just cant stop.
aint able to sleep at all,
i sense, insomnia
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i know you're very heart broken.
so am i .
giving you time,
but please do come back asap,
i really miss you lots,
i really love you lots too.
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i believe, we will overcome this obstacle.
becoming stronger in r/s.
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loving you, forever.

2009-05-22T00:33:00.000+08:00

EMOTIONALLY UNSTABLE NOW,
I REALLY CANT TAKE IT.

2009-05-21T23:09:00.000+08:00

i'm so so so so so sorry.
i know i'm in the wrong, sincerely, saying sorry to you.
assure you that, this will never happen ever again.
you have the right to be angry, because i'm in the wrong,
but please, dont be angry for too long alrights.
forgive me, will you ?

i love you,

2009-05-16T22:55:00.005+08:00

today went to changi, country club.
ate jumbo with cousins and their parents.
to celebrate belated mother's day (:

bill was o.o . GST and service charge was killer too.
but then the food was delicious.
sumptuous meal. i love it.

2009-05-16T22:38:00.003+08:00

YESTERDAY, OUT TO ARAB STREET AND BUGIS WITH THE GIRLS !
pictures below, (:

2009-05-14T23:02:00.002+08:00

after school went met up with dearest!
went his place, saw his mum! oooo., lol.
dinner was great !
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13mins left, to 1st month.
though it is just 1st month,
but i'm sure there's more coming up.
obstacles we having now, will make us stronger.
loving you deeper as days passes.
we accepted each other flaws.
we knew everything of each other.
Even the deepest secret which i have kept for ard 10++ years.
yes, it is years. and he's the first one whom i told.
can you imagine how much trust is there, in this r/s.
no matter what, dearest. i love you lotssssssm <33333333333333333
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tomorrow meeting up with my girls :D
tomorrow, i dont feel like going to school.
tomorrow, i'm having maths lesson.
tomorrow is friday
tomorrow is the last day of a weekday.
tomorrow is the 1st month.
i love tomorrow except for science lesson. :D
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took several pictures with dearest.
but uploaded one here only. why?
because i'm lazy. BUT, i have uploaded all in facebook album :D
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today i had a fright in school .
it is so creepy. that i cried, omg.
its ard 1pm. we preparing for our presentation.
just then , a person added me in msn, have no idea who is it.
saying that she/he is my dental in-charge. its like wtf.
i've never been to any dental clinic for the past years..
then i think its some prank. so i asked her for my full name.
oh yah, how i know its a her, because the name is joy.
amazingly, she know my full name.
so i told my team member about this.
then kane told me abt the incident his friend experience.
the person know every details of his friend.
then initiated a video call. accepted.
and u know what appear, penis. omfg la.
i was so damn scared when she knew i stay at pasir ris.
i thought its some stalker. so scary.
then out of a sudden, she initiated video call.
scared till i cried la. one of my team member rejected the video call.
and it was initiated agn. wah lao. then someone from another grp came.
accepted it, because she wanna see who is that person.
then u know what, it's NOEL. WTH MAN. thanks ah, classmate.
i will remember this for life. lol.
so so so scary you know! then she came saying sorry.
she didnt know i once had experienced a stalker during my sec school days.
she feel so guilty tht she keeps saying sorry, lol.
so relief that it's not some stalker la. phew......

2009-05-06T22:58:00.002+08:00

depressing day in school.
so damn embarrassing. ok whatever.
need to accept the fact that i'm very emotional and sensitive.
i did assume in one things or another.
assuming does harm me in some ways. lol.
thanks alfiah and iftirah for that letter above.
was so touched. and the hugs from almost all.
thanks for all the concern.
thank God that i have you guys as my classmates.
you all really brighten up my days! love you guys! :D
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had dinner.
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went to dearest's home.
but left ard 8.45. slept in bus.
reached home around 10pm..
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tomorrow will be better! :D
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oh yah, yesterday went to meet dearest after his work.
went to have dinner at DXO there. niceee :D i like.
next time going there to try others :D
walk around, sit there.
walked to bus stop opp peninsula plaza.
took bus 12. so long..
that we both fall asleep in the bus. lol.
dearest walked me up, LOVES. <3
just left with a step, aunty will see him. lol..
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till here for now, <3>

2009-05-03T01:01:00.003+08:00

been meeting up with dearest almost everyday :D
he knows all my secrets which no one knows,
for example, the secret which have been with me since young.
he knows everything. i remembered that time he asked me abt something.
And i cried. not wanting to cry, but well, cant control it.
i'm seriously touched by what you've told me that night, when i'm in your arms.
when i read your blog just now, i cried again.
why, because it's just so touching.
i love you, dearest ! <3>
loves, do take good care of yourself alrights.
dont stay up till 3 plus everytime! not good for health!
do drink more water, looking forward to meet u soon :D
althought just now we have already met each other, for awhile. hhaha.
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love yr sillyness :P
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its 1.15am.
do return home early and have a good rest alrights! <3

2009-04-26T22:04:00.002+08:00

dearest came over to meet me at ard 2plus.
headed to elias mall for lunch then to tm.
to get my thumbdrive.
after tht, walked around..
bus to my home area.
slack around till evening.
to elias mall for dinner.
then back to home (:
had an enjoyable day with dearest. :D
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you must have enough rest ok!
your health is more important than anything else!
must eat more too!! grow fatter!! :D
love you, see you tomorrow after sch! :D
misses, <3

2009-04-23T22:04:00.003+08:00

class was so fun today!
actual facilitator never come, so relief one came..
had science today.
i dont know why my brain functioning very well today.
haha! :D anyway. did our PDT and wrksheet within a short period of time.

during the first study period was totally crazy, didnt really study.
we wrote all our emails at the front of the class.
added everyone in msn, conferenced.
and u know what we did, play NUDGING WAR!!!
everyone keep sending nudge nudge nudge., omg man.
during lesson before 1st study period also keep nudging here and there.
so so so funny lah! cant stop laughing at it. LOL.
then we planned, as a whole class, go lunch together. STEAD AH!
all go except for one group and a few plp ba..
had lunch. laughs, took photos. everything ah.
plp in canteen were looking at foodcourt when we laugh out loud at something.
it's adam waas suppose to take photo for us.
then when its gonna be captured, he turn the camera to himself, and it captured him.
then laugh out loud lah.. hahha. after lunch,
went back to class to do our presentation slides.. cool man, :D
tomorrow going lunch together also i think :D
slept on bus on the way home, was so tired la.
lacking of sleep. lol..
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well, i'm starting to love school. because of the peeps in E37A.
they made the day so fun, interesting, filled with laughters.
jokers. and many many moree, :D:D enjoyable, :D
love E37A.
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well, not forgetting my dearest. :D
miss him loads. though we just met the day before. :D
meeting him again, soon! :D
with loves, :D
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i love my life, :D

2009-04-20T23:59:00.000+08:00

school was alrights and also terrible. hahahaha!!
firstly, i waited for people and ended up late.
shouldnt have waited, should just go. lol.
luckily facilitator says tht, 1st day, nvm.
mark never late.. if not minus 0.5 off yr daily grade sia.
so muchh lo, wtf, lol!!
jacob ng, the facilitator, was not bad.
so after all it wasnt a bad day la..
given a problem, discuss with grp member,
then chiong presentation slides.
think till headache man,
we were the last grp to present. cos grp5 wad.
presentation time, when my turn, was like shivering.. lol.
so long never present in front of so many people already lo.
we ended our class 30mins later than usual. hahhaa.
was told to go home to do our reflection journal, evaluation and quiz.
met ernest, shumei and jiamin. went to buy bbt at cold storage.
The weather so damn hot lahh. cannot make it. haha.
then ard 5.30pm, i went to meet dearest at his workplace,
While they go home!! :D reached there just nice 6pm :D
waited for a few mins, then he came.
had no idea where to go, in the end, we ended up at tm.
ahhaa. had our dinner together. went tm1. then bus to home area.
walked walked walked till pasir ris park. then reached home at ard 1040pm.
when i reached home, straight away on laptop,
do reflection journal and evaluate, wasnt able to do the quiz.
the reflection journal written quite a lot. lol .
need to be submitted by 1159pm. thats why, need to rush.
finally, 12am can have nice and cooling bathe. haha.
had an enjoyable day with dearest! :D
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i think tomorrow gonna be a big headache again,
bless me.

2009-04-19T16:07:00.003+08:00

Zweifel entstehen, wenn ich an lese
some friends just cannot be trusted.
they act one good one in front of you,
behind you, a totally different person. wth.
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i miss my dearest lots!
actually meeting him today,
but then now changed to tomorrow le.
see you soon, see you soon, i miss you so..
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tomorrow school starts already.
new school life, new environment, new friends,
new teaching approach, new teachers, wonder how will it be..
so not excited for it, but still have to go.
don't know why, i dont have motivation to go sch.
but still, will go for the sake of going ..
i dont have anyone i know in my class.
must starts making friends all over again.
like when i first go nursey, kindergarten, pri sch and sec school.
i wonder, my classmates is what kind of people.. haaa.
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cry out loud instead of laugh out loud.

2009-04-17T23:18:00.000+08:00

dearest met me right after his work,
went ws to eat then after tht, went to dte.
bought ticket for 17 again. just nice can go in,
nice show, not bad. recommendable..
walk to home area, spent quality time together.
tried to take some photo, but was like kinda dark, hahaha.
dearest need ard an hour to get home.
send me home and left at ard 1035pm ah..
its like 1150pm now, he just got home, hahaha.
had an enjoyable day with you dearest, <3 u lots.
wanna see u again, soon !!! :D :D :D

2009-04-15T15:19:00.001+08:00

watch sunset, yes?
hmmmm,,, (:

2009-04-13T01:10:00.000+08:00

悲しいのなら泣いてもいいよ

2009-04-11T22:49:00.001+08:00

went tm1 at ard 7.35pm.
bought a top at
PUNK STAR. going back to buy more! :D
went topshop, then saw NET.
wanted to check out whether u working inside.
coincidentally, cousin wanna go washroom.
so walk past to see if u're working.
then saw shirloh! didnt know she working there,
hahah. went in to say hi.
ho, so i've forgotten u not working at tm1 la.
dont know why thought u working there.
when u're working at jurong point. ho
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this world is so small! hohoho.
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gotta entertain R now.
knew R last year, you wont want to know how we met.
LOL, anyway. things between us last year,
was so so so damn terrible man.
but this year, now, was so much better.
things improved a lot. and i meant, A WHOLE LOT.. ((:
so till here for now! byes ((:

2009-04-08T02:03:00.001+08:00

went out to catch a movie and have lunch with shirloh and uma.
too bad, zahidah cant make it.. hmmm ..
we watched, confession of a shopaholic. very nice, i like (:
i got the storybook, but havent read yet. hahahaa.
walked around the mall after the show. :D
soon after tht, went whitesand. then home.
didnt tell me u today working at tm earlier! so can wait for u.
then go home! i reached home then you msg me telling me tht. =/
too late ah.. hahaha.. see you next time.
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tay same school same block as me.
such a coincidence(:
thought you will go tp. ha.
think tht decision was right.

2009-04-04T03:05:00.000+08:00

i'm lazy to upload all photos in a post.
so maybe will upload one photo per post. haha.
see if later i got mood or not, then i upload lo..
3am, still not able to sleep. stucked in the cyber world.
two person saved the lonely midnight.
nothing to do now, actually there's something to do.
but just, dont feel like doing,
stared blankly at the screen,
with the same song playing repeatly..
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bu yi yang le.
hui bu dao cong qian..
na ge ba heng, yong yuan dou chun zai, zai xin li mian.
xi wang you yi tian neng xiao shi.
you hen duo hua cang zai xin li,
jiu shi kai bu liao kou.
you yi tian hui bao zha.

2009-04-02T02:11:00.000+08:00

01april09, april fool day
this was taken before going out.
took a lot of photos. shall upload them tmr.
now too late already. its already midnight now.
later still need wake up super early, =/
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and my fcking pay not in. wtf man.
should be ytd come in one lo!
the others got their pay except me!
last month was nanee, didnt get.
this month i never get, wth!
need to wait till end of april i think. kock la.
dont know what they doing, so kock eyes. never do properly!
wadever f la. luckily i still got money..
still can as usual go out with friends as planned on 7april (:
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LETS KEEP TOK-ing @ RUPEE ROOM
(opp Rebel, clarke quay) on 9april09.

2009-03-31T12:15:00.004+08:00

this was lighted up during the earth hour.
supported the earth hour by switching off the light for one hour.
lighting candles to dispel darkness, at living room.
was so romantic.
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sorry for not updating.
wasnt in the good mood plus dont know what to blog somemore.
anyway, good life.
have no wishes for school to start so soon,
and most important one! : pay is here today! (: GOOD DAY!
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bu zhi dao shi ting bu dong hai shi shen me.

2009-03-24T16:53:00.001+08:00

heart's dead
its all too late,

2009-03-21T20:06:00.004+08:00

FLASHBACK.
photos after the texts, are not in order,
suddenly, all these memories came back to me,
when i'm alone,
thinking through everything that i've done for the past 16 years plus.
together with you guys was one of the most memorable one.
we have been through a lot together.
be it cries, laughters, happiness, sadness, sweetness, bitterness.
the good old days, when we mugged diligently.
the days when we enjoyed ourselves,
the chalet. all the services. cg meeting. visiting. praying.
fasting. meal times. serving. girls' outing. camp. bible studies.
bible quiz. and lots more ..
missing every moments we shared.
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how i got into this cg??
i remembered this clearly..
i was in an adult cg, bfore knowing this particular person frm e149.
saw him in the House Of God before.
called and told me abt service, as i was having sore eyes,
couldnt attend service for like 1 whole week plus..
he told me abt the service and i jotted down notes.
we kept in contact almost 24/7.
the 1 whole weeks plus, i was coped up at home.
cannot go school, cannot go service or anywhere..
eventually we met up for study, at night. till ard 12am.
attended the first service with e149, also the first day u sent me home
we met almost everyday afternoon,
for studies at simei starbucks, mugged till night time.
the stupid games played at mrt,the first time i rest my head on ur shoulder&u rest your head on my head.
the day when i fall sick, i was given the first hug frm u.
thanks for all the care and concern.
appreciate it.
prayed hard, study hard. played hard.
along the way, spiritual walks bcomes stronger.
overcome some trials unknown to all.
successfully, resisted every temptations that sets in.
put in 100% effort in everything i done, for God.
but one fine day, i failed to resist temptations,
failed to overcome trials. failed in everything, and i fall back.
many times, i heard Him calling me back.
so much that i wanted to walk into the House Of God again.
but something in me was pulling me back, no idea what.
i could still rmbr how i search through my contacts, agn&agn.
to invite people over to attend service/events..
sometimes, i failed to invite. plp rejected.
sometimes, i succeed in inviting them over.
for example during christmas,
ex and grp of friends tht i knew since sec1. came down..
i invite, not for the sake of inviting. invite because,
i sincerely wants them to know about the existance of God.
been faithful throughout.
made a promise to Him,
- not going to club
- not to drink
- not to go into bgr until graduate
and lots of others, but these were the main ones.
i've been keeping this promise,
when i decided to be faithful to the one and only God.
everything have been going smoothly.
until one fine day, when i fall back,
everything turns 360 degree.
my old habits[what i promised not to do] started agn..
its almost like, my life was corrupted.
things might not be the same as how it was now, if i didnt fall back.
i know, its not too late to return to the House Of God,
but . just something, which i dont know what it was.
was holding me back. frm going back..
but i know, one day i will return..
everything can start all over agn, i know..
i can take the first step by starting to read the bible agn.
time. its just time.

2009-03-20T02:54:00.003+08:00

didnt head to st. james la. sian.
just now went down to meet shun,hock and jun jie.
slack at my block downstairs for a while.
talked rubbish ah..
then they suggested to go play lan.
ok ah. then play till around 12.30am ah.
play till nausea ah, hahhaa. we played the left 4 dead.
didnt really know how to play.. after that still alright la..
i missed the 12am show :( but nevermind la, tml got repeat. :D
no mood la, bye.

2009-03-16T03:11:00.002+08:00

hello people, sorry for the lack of post.
recently, i just saw my bill and i got a shock of my life.
when i look at the internet usage section, i nearly fainted.
usage amounted up to 400bucks. wtf sial.
luckily got minus minus. then become ard 100plus..
bill; 144bucks plus plus or what. cant remember.
after seeing the bill, i quickly delete all the internet settings stuff.
so i cant blog using hp anymore :( i regret, A LOT..
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i have gotten a new laptop..
at first was using people's network.
because i dont know the password to my home wireless.
then today ask kenneth about it and tadah!
no more using people's network (:
using home mio wireless the whole day. so cool so good.
no more disconnecting. no more troubles connecting to internet. :D
so happy. can use throughout the whole night, hahhaa.
now desktop not using, siblings using already, hahaa..
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have been sleeping very very very early nowadays.
cant sleep . sighs..
i have stopped working already.
so will be staying at home till school starts.
well, not stay at home everyday la. depends lo.
still needs to tutor my brother.
his result drops a lot . sighs.
oh yah. today his birthday..
so here, i would like to wish him a very happy birthday.
he's in the rebellion period now, which is terrible..
tsktsk, sighs. hope you will understand everything we are doing.
its for your own good. not us. study hard alrights, boy.
i know everytime i teach you, i would be very fierce.
but its for ur own good, you'll need to understand this.
learn to be more obedient ah, dont everytime make ah ma angry.
she's old already, must dong shi yi dian ok. jiejie loves you (:
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think i stop working then relax already ah. ha.
wait long long. need to tutor brother,
goal; help him to pass every single subj in SA1!
stress leh. not so easy to teach him ah. =/ think will grow old very fast. ha.
ok lah, till here for now. goodnight.
its so early in the morning now, that i can go down for a run. lols.!!
gtg slp soon, grandfather waking up soon i guess. hahahaa.
he everytime very early wake up one leh. hehs,

2009-03-09T14:43:00.001+08:00

Specially flown from oversea. Thank you so much for the shirt. :) heh. Go on trip still can remember me. Not bad ah. HoHo. Appreciate it. My card has no limit eh.. Can withdraw a lot. Just now just withdraw for tomorrow's laptop and whatever payment.. Tomorrow got two bodyguard. Lol! Ok la. Sian. Bye.

2009-03-08T16:39:00.001+08:00

Hello Giraffe. Ha. Work full for today. Just now quite a lot of people, :( tuesday enrollment already.. My 1.6k flying away from me.. So damn ex. Wl.. Enrollment fees plus laptop plus laptop insurance fees.. The laptop and its insurance must pay by cash ? Or can use nets or whatever? Making full payment for laptop. Ho. And the GST damn ex leh..!! This week my last week. Will go back work only when its holiday time ah..

2009-03-05T21:14:00.002+08:00

28feb2009; 4e2'08 bbq gathering.

2009-03-05T00:26:00.001+08:00

爱在心里口难开. Thank you colleague for escorting me to mrt station the other day after work.. Thank you for letting me know that there are people out there who really cares.. And You've changed.. No words to describe how i'm feeling right..

2009-02-27T01:05:00.001+08:00

Was shocked that the customer i served on sunday, would wrote in to toys r us. So cool.. Work was alright for thursday. Except for one customer.. Nanee's customer. Grr.. Its alright. Left around two more weeks .. Hehs, till here for now. Bye. Goodnights.

2009-02-26T01:07:00.001+08:00

Dora is happy that saturday is arriving!!! Cant wait! :) three consecutive off days. Later finally going back work already.. Left around two more weeks. Then need to start private engaged training.. Held early in the morning.. No confident of being able to wake up so early to go for it alone.. Shag.. Wish me all the best. Yo. Till here for now. Goodnight.

2009-02-21T02:13:00.001+08:00

Its 2am now. Ho. Went for toys r'us paragon chalet just now.. Eat, talk, eat.. Went ate mac for supper with uma. Home already. Because later working full shift. Shit sia. Ha. Hope i'm not working on sunday.. And i find out shocking truth about some people.. Tsktsk.. I guess the others are having more fun at chalet ah, they later don't need work. Shiok huh, ha. Till for now, going sleep.. :)

2009-02-20T00:13:00.001+08:00

笑容后都是烦恼,但是不能随意说出口,要我怎么办.活在世上烦恼多的是.平静的生活很少.往日有什么事就要咬紧牙关度过.最好做一做些心理准备,出了事才不会措手不及,真心的祷告平安无事.

2009-02-19T00:47:00.001+08:00

Cute pajamas.. Ha.. Forget troubles by seeing the hamster, running here and there.. Actually can call neighbour out for a drink.. But not today i guess, another time perhaps.. Laptop and school fees, will take up most of my money. How to live. Nevermind. Jiayou! If there's a will, there's a way.. 不用靠 fther. 靠他不用study le.. F. Sia.. Bth..苦命了

2009-02-18T23:20:00.001+08:00

Drinking water! So cute!! :)

2009-02-18T23:19:00.001+08:00

Eating together. Heh.

2009-02-18T23:18:00.001+08:00

So cute! Today went whitesand with aunt, At around one plus ah.. Went library help bro pay fines first. Then went to posb. Deposit money.. After that, went ocbc. Then went ntuc. When finding things halfway, blackout accompanied with the sound 'teng'. Scared tio sia. Then they faster pull the shutter down.. Ha. Sacred people use this chance to steal things ah. Lol. Luckily the cashier still working. Ha.. If not, faints. But only can pay using cash ah.. Ho, some shops and the banks affected, so need to close ah.. Some shops not affected ah.. Thats about it. Heh, Arghs. Dont know la.. Bye

2009-02-18T01:40:00.001+08:00

Spent around one hour plus doing my nails. Not bad ah. Lovely :) work on tuesday was not bad. Only one void. :) improve a lot huh. Got excess money. Ho.. Alrights. No mood now. Bye.

2009-02-17T02:42:00.001+08:00

Monday, slept till 2pm. What sia. Ha. Had a nightmare and its like reality. Wtf.. Thinking back, i had a similar nightmare and when its going on, feel like it reality. Wth. Ok whatever, when i woke up from the nightmare, was relief that its a nightmare, not reality.. Hehs, hamster so cute when sleeping.. Cool ah, this weekend toys r us paragon's chalet. HoHo.. Think not staying overnight ah. A lot people leh. Some more next day need to work one.. Like crazy. Lol. See how first ah.. Next weekend, class bbq. So fast eh.. Now its 2.40am, cant fall asleep. Later working afternoon shift. As cashier, sian la.. I don't want do cashier. Some more tomorrow think that guy working ah.. =/ goodnight la. Think here for now..

2009-02-16T00:55:00.001+08:00

One of our dearest Toys r'us paragon manager, ck. Was being shrink wrapped by people doing closing for sunday. Hahaha. His last day what.. Ha, toys r us tradition. For birthday also.. Ha.. Wth.. Really very violent you know. Haha, the whole video is in nadya's phone. Ho.. Nadya used marker to draw on his back.. Lol! Ck was struggling all the way.. Tsktsk. Haha, sunday full shift as cashier. Was ok. Was not happy with customer, who don't want item after i total up everything.. Then some leh, want gift receipt, early don't want say. After i total up then say. Crap la.. Got one item i double it.. All these crap, need to be void.. Ho.. Then at the end of the day. I got a total of nine void i think. Then, no shortage. If i'm not wrong, should be have excess.. Lol. Because i gave a lady five dollar less for her change and she was too busy talking on the phone to realise. Lol. And i had free lunch. Because i gave the aunty five bucks. She give me change of six dollars plus. Lol.! I didnt realise until i walked out of the building..i almost died after doing the whole day of cashier. Boo. I hate cashier. Lol.. But also a bit fun la. Minus those fussy customer. Don't want this and that or whatever after i've total up everything.. Ha. Alright. Till here for now. :) nights

2009-02-15T00:28:00.001+08:00

Happy vday to everyone. Had a wonderful vday. Gotten two hamster including the cage, food.. From human. Of course from human la. Wth. Lol. Was the most embarrassing one. In front of a lot of people. Though the person didnt give directly. Wth. Big Shock. Scary. Rose taken from shaiful. Lol.. Bouquet of flowers, necklace, earrings, ring from dearest.. The necklace So shiny and bling.. HoHo.. Had pizza hut. Called delivery ah. Because outside really too many people.. Tsk.. And i think the delivery man lost vouchers. Because when we eating. He came back and asked if we saw a plastic bag of vouchers. Tsktsk.. Eat till very full ah.. 15feb, gonna be my first day as a cashier in toys r us.. When i first entered the company, i was a gift wrapper during christmas season. Then became service counter personnel. Then now cashier.. Then next what? Ha.. I don't wanna be cashier ah. I'm afraid that i would lose money ah.. Some more the straightening area so many. Go and bang head la.. Stopping work at the end of this month if everything goes as planned.. Maybe will continue when poly starts ah.. When i see him at work, think gonna be awkward ah. Only toys r us staff knows why. Lol. Goodnight, i'm so not looking forward to 15feb morning. Because i'm gonna work full shift as cashier. Go bang head. :)

2009-02-13T00:44:00.001+08:00

Now this have happened. From bad to worst. From last year till now. How am i going to continue to survive through it? Taking as nothing have happened.. Why so irresponsible? They helped you and you've agreed to retrieve it in time. But now what, all was empty promise. Leaving family members, heart broken. Losing trust in you. No one wants to help you anymore.. Neither would i still want to remain as your dghter.. Rather be Orphan, better than having this kind of fther.. I really have enough. Breaking into countless tears because of what you have done. Causing so much heartbreaking matters.. Shouldnt it be a happy family? If you arent capable, shouldnt have set one up.. Causing everyone to be heartbroken.. I'm left speechless, you arent even fit to be a fther. Hatred gathered, becoming a volcano that have yet to erupt.. Sooner or later, eruption will occurs. Everyone's tolerance level has a limit.. If another family falls apart because of what you've done, i'm through with you. Will regard you as well as long ago dead.. Enough and exhausted..